“I believe in everything until it’s disproved. So I believe in fairies, the myths, dragons. It all exists, even if it’s in your mind. Who’s to say that dreams and nightmares aren’t as real as the here and now?”    ~   John Lennon

There comes a time in every person’s life, where they look at the dreams they have and wonder if it ever will be real,  if they should get down from those clouds or castles they built and face reality… where dreams don’t exist.

I have always been driven by my dreams, by knowing inside my heart that I was not created in vain, I had a great purpose and that is why God created me unique. I kept that dream inside of me hidden and tucked away from the cruelty of reality, from those voices that tell you: “but that happened to me too” or “I can do that as well.” Every time I felt I maybe was just another person, that faith inside of me fought back and said: you are not, and it will happen just wait and be patient.

I never thought that one day, I would open that box and look at it from afar, wondering why have I kept it for long and whether it perhaps has eluded me from seeing life as it really is, a tunnel where everyone is the same yet some think they are brighter than others though light is reflecting randomly upon their metallic accessories.

As I fiddled through that fictional box, promises written in paper and images from memory to remind me of who I am and how I got here for inspiration, I truly asked myself was it time to let go and give it to someone else for all hope’s sake while it’s not too late. It saddened me that I was even considering that thought, but I was wondering if I was doing myself a favour by giving up my hopes for guardian angels in human form to show themselves, for Mr Right to come and sweep me off my feet, for dragon slayers to spare those beautiful creatures but save those derived of freedom of expression and love, for everyone to see others as equals and for judgement to be left to God..and for me to accomplish that image of my successful, happy and beautiful place in life. I might have partially felt what a patriotic with a dream never accomplished might have, I felt drained and powerless.

“When you’re living your life in endurance mode, you don’t expect anything good to happen. I’m not saying that you don’t dream about some miracle that would change everything for the better. But you pretty much know it’s only a fantasy, and that you have no real control over anything.”  ~    Nancy Werlin

Here is a question: do you think holding to dreams and believe we will get what we hoped and seen in those movies miraculously happen, or let go and embrace the reality and give up hoping for a moment of Hollywood to happen in our lives?

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