This post is as personal as it gets…so hope its embraced by you , the readers and partners in my journey, with love ~

I have started the quest to love myself and lead the movement of accepting myself as a soul and an inspirtional spirit – no one warned me how hard it will be though.

If you have been like me, you wouldve been comparing yourself with others to perhaps ensure you are on the right track, seek to be better or sometimes unconciously sabotage your own soul.

Well, this week was a proper rollercoaster for me as one day I can’t be more happier in my own  skin and accepting everything that I am. but then I take the plunge from one comment, one bragging statement, one hurtful word, one number…and its back to where I started.

This for sure has been the toughest phase of all that I have ever had to encounter, as much as I have accomplished for me, my family, my career, my fellow women in society, my country…I can’t even stop to look back at it and smile before my negative side comes to tell me it’s nothing or that someone said they’ve done that even before I attempted all this.

This post is not to guide any of you as much as its asking for guidance..I am sure we all go through this time and time again, but my ambition was to stop it once and for all…and I think I sincerely do not know how.

For now all I can be thankful for is songs that help me feel better and know someone with the same ideas as me wrote it to inspire others. I have also decided to work on finding that switch off button in my head to stop thinking of it all…TURN OFF

And if you keep falling down

Don’t you dare give in

You will arise safe and sound

So keep pressing on steadfastly

And you’ll find what you need to prevail

What you say is
I can make it through the rain

I can stand up once again

On my own and I know

That I’m strong enough to mend

And every time I feel afraid

I hold tighter to my faith

And I live one more day

And I make it through the rain

                      Mariah Carey – Through The Rain

 

Note: this post links to a previous one titled “A Dialogue that starts like this”

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