a common prayer ~  “I seek refuge in you from my evil self أعوذ بك من شر نفسي

Being young and sure of possessing super powers, I used to walk around with an invisible star over my head signifying my special gift to the blind passers by who were unfortunate to not be chosen as well! I felt powerful and special and loved the uniqueness it made me feel, even if it was somehow a false notion.

My invisible star’s light grew dim for my eyes, and with the coming years I became unsure of its presence with the birth of what I called “evil self”. The new dark light gave false notion of brightness to my inner soul, but was secretly and to my absolute foolishness implementing a scheme to make me a common human; one who dismiss complements as a necessary social task, disbelieving the slightest possibility of having unique qualities and forever putting myself down.

One day recognizing its dark sheen, I cursed the outside world, its people and events for turning me into this common human and taking away my super powers. I decided I was a victim and acted the play perfectly.

“You have power over your mind – not outside events. Realize this, and you will find strength.”~ Marcus Aurelius

 But as I one day read the common prayer, which pledged God to give me refuge from this evil part of one’s self, I realized: we all have it and its WITHIN us and not outside. I started to listen closely to the conversation the dark light makes with my soul, the ones you are having and never dismiss and therefore get hypnotized to believe. That evil self was trying to take over, by my well and with my ears listening in and my hands cowardly surrendering with no reluctance.

I got my hands to reach each other and form a unity and repeated since: “I seek refuge in you from my evil self أعوذ بك من شر نفسي


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